SELF INITIATION
THE ART OF
GUIDED BY THE DEVIC KINGDOMS OF THE PLANTS
Become a Disciple of The Divine Mother
to revive the innocence and restore the purity of the human heart
the - Holy Sophia - DIVINE MOTHER
The Divine Mother; the Sacred Mirror of Life; she is the divine feminine principle known as Isis-Mary-Sophia; The Soul of the World. As the consort and spouse of God she is the first emanation of creation through which all Life in our universe is born. She cannot be defined or known through written words, her being is a remembrance; an eternal knowing; that comes to life as living light and wisdom in our consciousness when we begin to cultivate a sacred relationship with the Source of Life to unravel the mysteries of our soul and become a conscious participant in the world evolution.
She is always present yet her whispers and sacred songs may only be heard by the initiate who is aspiring to become her apprentice. To know the soul, is to know the Mother. She is the Wisdom of the World.
She is the great being who initiates us through each of our Earth incarnations. It is through her being that our soul is given physical form. Her guiding light that is shining through the plant kingdom is teaching us how to revive the innocence and restore the purity of the human heart. She is the co-redemptrix. She holds within her being every aspect of human, cosmic, and divine evolution.
Her mysteries can be sought for in the secret language and processes of nature, and within the hidden chambers of the heart she guides us on the quest of becoming. She knows exactly what we need to evolve and never stops loving us no matter how far away from the source of love that we fall. She is all-loving, forever giving and patient with her children.
For Rudolf Steiner Sophia is Wisdom in all its manifestations - divine, heavenly, cosmic, earthly. From this perspective, wisdom is everywhere. She is an evolutionary reality surrounding and permeating us. To truly acknowledge reality, we must say that we live and move and have our being in her. Traditionally, the study of this reality -the path and way of knowing the wisdom that we are and that surrounds us- is called science. Science, before the modern age of duality, abstraction, objectification, manipulation, and control, was always devoted to the great project of self-knowledge, which is the transformation of Wisdom into Love.
Becoming a disciple of the Great Goddess is a pathway towards self-knowledge, inner purification, and self-realization which takes place through Initiation with the deity herself. The Mother has many faces and we meet these aspects of the goddess through the ancient myths and legends that have been portrayed and worshipped in diverse cultures and worldly religions over thousands of years.
She is called by many names- Innana in Sumeria; Astarte among the Hittites; Ishtar in Babylon; In Egypt (among many others) Isis, Maat, Hathor, Nut, & Neith; In Greece - Demeter, Pallas Athena, Aphrodite, Persephone, Artemis, Hecate; In Norse - Freya, Idunn, Gefjon, Hel; In Hindu - Saraswati, Lakshmi, Kali, Durga, Parvati. These goddesses are all different aspects of the Divine Mother, they represent different states of the same primal principle, acting according to successive phases of becoming.
These deities are not separate from us and can only be understood when we realize that they are a part of and represent our soul's evolutionary path through incarnations. Their stories and myths are revealing deeper truths and keys to initiation and the souls transformation.
Note: As you may know there are masculine figures and polar opposites to the feminine deities represented in the mysteries too, I am not including them in this reading because this section is focused on the feminine mysteries and her path of evolution.
"There is only one single femininity, but it acts differently in different environments"
- Schwaller De Lubiz
MEETING THE ANGELS
- the devic kingdoms -
THROUGH THE PLANTS
MY STORY
When I passed through the gates of my Saturn return in 2020 I went through the most painfully transforming heartbreak of my life. This experience awoke my soul from its dormancy and I was for the first time in my life met with the deepest wound of my soul that I had been unable to see before. My ex partner ended up initiating me into what I experienced as my first dark night of the soul which led me to leave him, pack up all my belongings, and move out to the forest with the intention to live in solitude and be with the land. I had a very strong intuition that guided me to make this choice and I knew before I moved that the forest was going to teach me how to heal, without yet knowing how it was going to happen.
The wounding that presented itself to me blasted me open and suddenly I had to begin question everything about myself; my choices, my desires, my patterns, my beliefs, my actions, and primarily what I thought love was.
Self-sacrifice seemed to be an issue for me when love came into my life. Unhealthy and self-destructive I became. The patterns that I could see so clearly with this man was that I completely lost myself, forgot about my own heart, and depended on him to approve, see, and love me. Which never happened. I gave my heart to the devil one could say, the monsters in the closet. I was trapped in imaginary love-stories created on lies and deception and each day that I chose to neglect the true desire of my heart I fell deeper and deeper into the abyss. How much pain can I take? I could leave him at any moment but I chose to believe in the lies even when my body told me not to. Until one day when the perpetuated trauma got so painful that I had to leave. I was never seen, heard, held, or loved by him - I was manipulated and sexually groomed. However I was not a victim, I actually chose all of it myself, but from a place of immense internal distortion that I was not aware of at the time. I believed that my worth and value was determined by my willingness to serve him and that everything I experienced was just my inner wounding presenting itself as fear, when the truth was that he was lying all the time. Now this experience have been so incredibly important for me because it was through the mirror of this man that I began to see in all the ways that I was dishonoring my own heart, body, and intuition.
I knew that I had to investigate myself and my inner world; my soul; to understand the root of this trauma which seemed to have no correspondence to anything I've experienced during my childhood. For the first time in my life I was willing and ready to dive fully into the mystery of my perceived shadow and begin to learn what it wanted to teach me.
I ended up spending more than 4 years; mainly in solitude; in the forest of my homeland Sweden. During this time I went through the deepest healing and inner transformation of my life so far. I began working with the plants as my allies and was initiated by the devic (angelic) kingdom through them. This way of working with the plants to unlock and study my own mystery started living inside of me as a path of inner evolution that seemed to be revived and remembered through the awakenings and revelations that lead me into cultivating a reverent and sacred relationship with The Great Goddess - Mother Nature. Each plant that I worked with presented itself as a key to my inner mystery. Through devotional ceremonies and studies with each being I came to remember myself and my soul through them. These beings put both my higher and lower self to the forefront - the shadow of my ego parading, and at the same time the innocent light of my heart seed coming to life. Learning about my darkness and my light. What needed to be purified within my soul and why. Redefining my purpose and devoting myself to reviving the innocence of my heart, which in the greater whole is a most honorable path leading us to restore the purity of the human heart.
I feel the necessity to share this part of my personal journey because I know there are many women walking a similar path as me, here to heal the same kind of wound which has been carried as curses in our blood and lineages over centuries. In many ways I have learned over the past few years that my wound is not my own, even though I experience it as such. However the lessons I personally learn from them are defined to fit the path of evolution that my soul is here to walk in this life. The wounding and trauma that we all face in today's world are the karmic imprints of humanities dark past. We have all been apart of shaping the world karma through our past incarnations, both "good and bad", and now many of us are returning to integrate and transform the shadow once and for all through inner alchemy and the process of Initiation.
I want to acknowledge the great medicine and beings of the plants that have guided and initiated me during the past years. Each plant being a portal and a messenger of the diverse ranks of angels which one can meet and study with in the inner worlds through doing this work.
✬ Pink Sacred Lotus; who's seed was planted in my heart a year before my journey with the plants began in 2019. This being is working "behind the scenes" to awaken the higher light within the monad and bring it down into the etheric heart. It is the angel who's overseeing and guiding the soul's path of initiation. It is in charge of unveiling the mission and directing the lessons needed for the inner environment to reach its highest potency and purity.
✬ Forget-me-not; Feminine innocence in her most radiant light. This angel is a highly evolved being radiating feminine softness, fierce compassion, and purity. She taught me about forgiveness and how to love beyond the broken stories of the mind. Helping us to heal heartbreak and remember the true essence of the soul which is eternal love. This was the first plant that I worked with when my journey in solitude began in 2020. I spent a month in connection and prayer with her in my garden before I did a three day ceremony that sealed our initiation into the etheric.
✬ Oak; Ancient Earth keeper and Father of the skies who brings us back into divine authority within the temple of our soul. Oak was the sacred tree of Zeus, Jupiter, & Thor. Strength, stability, and ancient wisdom. Oak connected me to druidic wisdom and began to teach me about energetic self-mastery. I still have a lot to learn from this great being! I worked with the Oak for a month and did a two week plant immersion and initiation with this tree in 2021.
✬ Mugwort; The Mother of All Herbs. This plant deva connect us to the Triple Goddess when we have have chosen to devote our hearts to the path of initiation with the Great Mother. She is an important ally for the disciples who are working with earth magic, ancestral healing and inner alchemy as part of the soul's path of evolution. Shadow work is at the forefront and necessary if we truly want to evolve. She illuminates the pathways and sacred tasks within the soul that leads to root-healing and revelation, teaching the disciple to awaken and develop their own innate heart-medicine. One must learn how to transform darkness into light through personal experience and initiation to embody the wisdom of the soul. I have worked with Mugwort for 4 years, she is the one plant deva I have done the deepest work with and she's always with me. I met her the first time in 2019 and began my initiation with her in 2021.
✬ Tobacco; The Father of Plants. Tobacco is one of the strongest and most well-known shamanic plant devas. Revered throughout many cultures across the world for centuries and a potent purifier that penetrates deep into the subconscious layers of the body, mind, and soul to heal, reveal, and bring us into deeper alignment with truth. The deva of this plant is an ardent elder and needs to be worked with from a place of divine intention where we may ask for him to purify the etheric and astral bodies to prepare us for the descend of spirit into the heart. Tobacco was a part of my jungle initiation in 2022, I dieted and worked with this plant for 60 days in isolation in the Bolivian amazon.
✬ Ceiba; The biggest tree in the Amazon who grows like an antenna and spreads like an umbrella over the tree tops. This is tree is known as Yaxche, the Tree of Life in Mayan mythology. A mother tree who is vitally important to the eco system of the forest and one that protects the heart of our world. The deva of this tree is a Giant spirit and a portal to both the lower and higher worlds. The mysteries and initiations that this tree is gatekeeping can be understood through the myth of the Descent of Innana into the Underworld, which is symbolic to the journey of we must do as initiates on the path of self-realization. The death of the ego which eventually leads to the resurrection of the true (innermost) self. This tree initiated me through a death portal where I lost my connection to my perceived identity and heart centre. I felt abandoned by God and had to move through the experience of a loss of the "old" me. I went through an internal abyss for two months and it took me two years to integrate and work through the revelations and deeply important teachings this tree brought me. This is a tree that one has to be prepared to be initiated by.
✬ St. Johns Wort; The messenger of Christ, an angel that illuminates the etheric heart and activates the internal sun. Working to strengthen, purify, and align the solar plexus centre which is the seat of the "Ego" or the self. This plant is fiery and masculine, known throughout history to be an "all-healer" and energetically protective plant. St. Johns Wort illuminates the aspects of the Self that needs refinement and brings a powerful boost of inspiration and creative action to make changes and re-pattern ones life or daily focus to be more fruitful to ones inner evolution. It brings us into an experience which is preparatory for the coming incarnation of the spirit-self.
I did a two week plant immersion with St.Johns Wort in 2022, it initiated me into a deeper connection with my personal power and supported me through a process of inner reclamation, preparing me for my self-served batism that took place a year later on the greece island Patmos where St John lived and wrote the Book. of the Apocalypse.
✬ Iris Siberica; A plant that powerfully displays the presence of the holy trinity, the three worlds, and the 9 spiritual hierarchies. The angel of this plant is ruled by Jupiter and comes through as a teacher of higher knowledge; a royal beauty that inspire and infuse ones creative channels in a poetic and luminescent light. It reveals its being and medicine to us in a way that invites us to invent new ways of honoring spirit and cultivate a deeper connection with the creative powers of the universe as a reflection of our own innate being. Iris came to me as a birthday blessing in 2024 and began teaching me over the summer months when they were in bloom.
✬ Ash; This is the Tree of Life, Yggdrasil, in Norse mythology. A powerful mother tree that will take the devoted disciple under her wings. She's like a faerie godmother holding the keys to all of our inner mysteries, inhibited by many different creatures and faeries that comes through as a whole world of magic. I have yet to meet another tree as graceful and warm as her, she teaches through a rare form of kindness that feels like a mothers embracing love. If one has done the appropriate inner work before beginning a journey with her she might test our readiness and intentions before we are accepted, but once we are, she teaches through awakening inherent soul powers and memories of past lives that are important to our current evolution. The powers that are awakened will be developed for a greater cause that serves to bring healing grace into the world. I began my journey with the Ash tree during Summer Solstice 2024.
✬ Apple; The guardian at the gate of Eden. The deva of this tree is gatekeeping the mysteries of Sex and is a teacher of sacred sexuality and chastity as in sexual purity. A Venusian tree powerfully ruled by Libra. We are taken to the initiation of the great Virgin Goddess, the white snake, and may reap the fruits of the golden apples of eternal youth. If one is prepared, this initiation may cleanse the soul records of past life karma and trauma which has distorted and imprinted ones sexual core with inverted forces that creates many obstacles on the path of healing and soul-integration. Ultimately this will serve to illuminate the astral body and bring to light the lower, self-destructive desires that ones is feeding, and support in clearing the programs which keep us stuck and oblivious to the greater impact of how we direct and work with the sexual energy. The angel of the Apple tree will open up a path which one can tread to purify ones sexuality and learn how to work with it for higher development. I had my initiation with the apple tree in 2024.
✬ Rosemary; The Dew of the Ocean, Rosemary is connected with the Goddess Aphrodite and Mother Mary, she is ruled by Mercury and the Sun. This being is a potent remedy for maladies of the mind, where forgetfulness of the soul has taken the overhaul and disconnection between heart and mind is strongly emphasised. She has a most radiant and powerful synergy with the higher heart which holds the blueprint of our soul. If we work with her for a longer period of time she may open us up to connect to deeper aspects of the soul-nature and and help us remember vital information about its origin that will support us in our inner unfolding. She activates our creativity and strengthens our intuition. There's a surge and impulse of deep cleansing that takes place through the mental and emotional bodies, what needs to be washed out in order for us to embody more of our innate being will be forced into motion. Rosemary entered as a profound teacher and guide during the 12 holy days of christmas of 2024.
✬ Cinnamon; The angel of this tree may present itself to us as the archetype of the Divine Inner Lover. Inviting us to journey into the deeper mysteries of Love and teach us about the alchemizing power of the ardent fire that initiates us when the force of Love fills our heart. "Falling in love" may be represented by the descent into the shadow realms of our own internal being, where we are given an opportunity to learn, grow, and transform the darkened areas of the psyche which become illuminated when the heart expands. The power of love is an alchemizing force that seeks to transcend and refine the Self into a higher expanded consciousness which sees beyond the Ego into the unity field of the collective soul of the world. I met and worked with the Ceylon Cinnamon tree for three weeks in Sri Lanka in January 2025
