12 Holy Days with Rosemary - Community Portal

Aloha beautiful souls!

Felt to share a bit of the journey for me so far since our first day. Overall, it's been gentle and invigorating. I can feel Rosemary heightening my sensitivity to everything in and around me. A gentle undoing - allowing emotions long suppressed to rise to the surface. Last night, as I sat with Rosemary and contemplated the Cancer season of 2024, the memory that came to me was an encounter with the Divine Mother in a moon school ceremony where all I felt was grief and sadness at the pain endured by so many in this reality. I couldn't help but ask her why while I sobbed tears for myself and so many others. Her response was to hold me, but there was a piece of me that didn't trust that embrace. The rest of the month was incredibly difficult as I navigated being triggered BIG TIME by someone in my life who reminds me of my own mother. For context, my mother was abusive in a pretty extreme way, so running into this woman and feeling those same emotions was so hard... but also freeing and showed me my strength.

Now, six months later, as we began this journey with Rosemary and the Divine Mother, I found myself cutting ties with this woman and needing to be strong once more and set healthy boundaries in a situation where my energy was being drained. It hasn't gone over well, and so while Rosemary is softening and undoing me I seem to feel every trigger x 10. It seems that Rosemary is teaching me the balance between personal power and love and compassion. How my personal power doesn't have to be set against something or someone - it's actually an act of profound compassion for me and the other people involved... In the inner realms, I can craft a win win for both of our highest evolution and growth.

Last night, sitting with the Rosemary, I prayed to the Divine Mother to help me with this - to disentangle my energy from anything that would fight or struggle and simply to allow freedom to emerge as I shift to another reality. Afterwards, I pulled a card - it was Mother Mary and Unconditional Trust. I burst out weeping tears of pent up grief and the release felt profound. I feel Rosemary teaching and helping me shift to a new state. I'm really struck by how gentle AND strong she is....

Thank you so much for reading and for your presence in this space... I get so much encouragement from reading your shares. Aloha Ma - I love you completely 🦋