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Dream:

I was walking across the living room when I saw a man at the door. I went to see what he wanted & realized he was not a man but a tall, lanky frame of a man, but his body was made of many different shapes. He did not look human. I was scared & closed the door on him... as I walked away a glimpse of a woman appeared, she whispered something in my ear. I suddenly felt like coughing & covered my mouth. I coughed something into my hand, when I looked I saw a pile of blue butterflies 🦋🦋🦋🦋 all in a bunch. I looked in amazement at what had came out of my mouth, wondering how they got there. I wanted to capture to moment & held them in my had while I went to get my phone.

Suddenly I felt what I held moving and expanding... I looked at it & saw that they were multiplying. I ran to the door mystified by what was happening but still wanted to capture the moment so l put them in my shirt as I opened the door ready to record as I released them. Suddenly they started to come out on their own! Hundreds of 🦋🦋🦋🦋 just coming out of me, along with a few white teddy bears that fell on the floor. I looked in amazement as they flew out the door & across a creek a few feet away from the house. I went to pick up the teddy bears but one started to run out the door.. I went after it but it fell into the creek. I tried to reach in for it but it started to move in weird ways and suddenly had a devilish look on its face. Next to it appeared a face of a person, his body a form of a snake. He slithered about the water. Suddenly I was scared and ran back to the house. As I started closing the door, the tall slinky man appeared and he tried saying something to me, but I was too scared to listen & quickly locked the door, telling him "stay out". My husband came running to see what was happening... when he asked, I suddenly realized he would think I'm crazy if I told him what actually happened (as I usually have to keep spiritual things like this to myself in real life). I stood silent as I tried to think of something to say he would understand. Suddenly the woman appeared again as if floating next to me (a spirit guide), she laughed as she asked, "what will you tell him now".

I yelled at her, "how did you get in here". My husband looked at me puzzled, as I realized he couldn't see her. I pulled him close to me as my thoughts scrambled to think what to say. I started to think out loud, and say something when she laughed again as said, "that's right maybe just lie". But I didn't want to lie... I held him tight and said, "something inside me has been changing for a while & I am experiencing things that you may not fully understand"

I felt I needed to speak my truth even if didn't make sense to him, even if he thought I was crazy.

As I woke up, I felt a sense of joy for what I had experienced in the dream & what has transpired in my daily life. Yesterday I spent the entire afternoon until 9pm in meditation & contemplation on this journey with the Rosemary Deva. Earlier in the day I heard the song,"New Sky" 🎶 playing as I drove home from an appointment. It was exactly how I have been feeling with my devotion to this journey, connecting with plant medicine & being a life student of their medicine & wisdom. I edited the 🎶 song to reflect my own journey & sang to Rosemary as an offering of my love & devotion to learning from her as tears ran down my face feeling the everythingness the song meant to me & my truth. Later as I prepared to close the journey Rosemary came in my reading & told me she wanted to continue working with me, teaching & guiding me through this new experience that is my life now as an herbalist. I felt an opening of communication with the Deva & felt her loving embrace. She had been with my all along and now I was fully embracing her presence & guidance.

This dream was a compilation of things I had let go of during the last four years, the past, the pain, the chaos, not being able to be my trueself or speak my truth. Leaving that past behind to be able to free myself and find my truth, my voice, my magic.

I am grateful for all this journey has taught me & now be able to learn & grow with her 🌿 on a deeper level.

Thank you Great Mother, Goddess & Deva of Rosemary for holding space for me 🎶 “until I was ready I to fly into this new sky”