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Hey everyone, reading you all helps a lot. I feel accompanied. Thank you !

I feel my biggest fears around relationship are coming up so strongly that it’s hard to not believe them.

I feel constantly that I might not be with the right person, in the right place, doing the right thing. I feel incapable of loving him and at the same time i feel unlovable.

I am not the person I want to be and to look this person in the eyes is hard to do. It’s truly my deepest feelings of unworthiness that are coming up.

I have fears even journaling down what I really think because it would hurt if someone would ever read it. I am already thinking about burning these pages after this process is over and integrated.

It’s hard to believe that I can be myself without this part of me that hurts so deeply. It feels like a part of me that always keeps coming back. It’s almost af if I feel attached to it.

So… this process is intense to say the least. Despite knowing why this is happening and that I am in medicine journey, i feel that i am coming short in kindness towards myself and the ones who are loving me and around me. This feels like a huge test for sure.

♥️🙏