12 Holy Days with Rosemary - Community Portal

My journey so far has been, as someone else shared, walking through mud. The clearings have been more gentle though after I made my tea weaker, then slowly I felt my body and rosemary say, ok, we can go abit stronger now. Someone's suggestion that the body is slow, so be slow with it really supported me. Thankyou!

At the same time I've felt lots of clarity and inspiration, about what I want in my life and what is not supporting me any further and how I can only bring in this newness if I let go and do things I've not done before, which is bringing up questions of trusting in the universe and trusting myself.

I live in Manchester, UK, it's such a busy city and I'm so enegetically sensitive. It's overwhelming. Internally I am happy, but externally, I'm not. I have stayed because of friends but for so many years I've wanted to move. I imagine living in the English countryside and I'd be content, there is a rich magic in cold, northen nature, but since working with rosemary I'm feeling a real clarity that, for now atleast, I'm not feeling a resonance in the UK. I don't know where I feel to be, everytime i drink rosemary, I have visions of rainforests, loud and alive, mountains, volcanos. For a while I've felt, perhaps my soul is one of those that wants to travel, i really feel so close to the earth and other humans when I am travelling. I'd love to travel slowly, sharing music, healing, cocreating with others, ceremonies, working with music and the earth... It'd be alot simpler to not be pulled to that lifestyle! There is a huge part of me that loves stillness and creating and nurturing something too but... I feel it's my saggi sun wants travel, my Gemini moon wants share everything and be out there cocreating and my Capricorn rising wants to be still, building grounded community and maintaining it 🫠 its a contradictory mix but I'm feeling they could compliment eachother in helping me create a life I love.

Ive spent the past 5 years working on myself and training in different healing methods, before that music was my life, but I don't share or express it. I'd love to go out there and start sharing what I've been cultivating. I'd love to co-create music and medicine ceremonies with others on the same path. This shared container has helped me realise finding others on a similar wavelength is really giving and I'd love to go out there into the world and find OR create places filled with music,ceremony, working with nature, sound healing, alternative healing. I feel so inspired and clear but also practical and realistic. "How do I find that? Create that? Sustain that?" It's been a beautiful unfolding of feeling ready to come out of my time of inner cultivation and share myself... but it's bringing up feelings of, do I deserve to live a life I love? What if what I give isn't that good, what if nobody wants it. So feeling deep inspiration to "share my souls passion" and "creating a life that resonates and aligns with my souls truth!" paired with my core beliefs showing me where I lack the confidence in who I am and what I give and I always have and that's the root! So yes, half beautiful, but half MUD!! 😜 Ever asking deva rosemary to support, clear and help me release All that is holding me back!

SO grateful to deva rosemary and her gentle but strong wisdom, purification and clarity, grateful for this container, others shares and openness, and to jenifer for creating this space. 💙 much love to all