12 Holy Days with Rosemary - Community Portal

Aloha beautiful souls! I'm still integrating and feeling the medicine deeply, and wanted to hop in to share a bit about the journey. I truthfully didn't expect it to be as powerful as it was since this is my first time doing anything like this. I guess I just didn't know what to expect. As I mentioned in my last post, it coincided with a situation that arose in a relationship I have with someone who carries the same energy as my abusive mother, and truthfully, most of the journey with Rosemary was about that. I found myself in a position where I had to claim my ground, speak my truth and stand up for myself in ways I've never done before. With my mother, I just left (finally after 34 years) and didn't get to navigate it in a conscious way. It was more about survival at that point, but this latest version of abuse of power was more "gentle" and I was able to see what was happening in real time - with the support of Rosemary, the Divine Mother and a lot of support from guides and friends. For the first nine days of the journey, I was navigating this situation and seeing all my old trauma responses and experiencing the most profound triggers I've ever felt in my body. I am honestly so thankful for them, though, because it led me to a place of feeling (for the first time in my life) the sovereignty of my own body and how I am her greatest protector. I get to be the Mother she never had - with the support of the Divine Mother, who I felt profoundly. Truthfully, I broke patterns of people pleasing and sacrificing myself that have been in place my whole life. I'm 44, so they were deep.

Once that situation resolved itself, after standing my ground over and over, I found I was finally able to start receiving messages from Rosemary about ME. Who I am inside. My original design. The unique vibration and offering I came here to give the world. My way of serving Mother Earth and humanity... the messages were powerful and also somewhat mysterious - meaning I feel like I'm still unraveling some of them. That's where my question comes in... When I ended on Sunday, I was deep in the middle of seeing some of those messages come through and almost decided to extend my journey by a couple of days to keep them going. The reason I didn't was that I felt spiritually weary. Like, I might over-tax myself if I kept going... so I closed the ceremony space with Rosemary on Sunday night. The odd thing was that the two days after that were DARK. I had no juice for anything and literally laid on the couch all day - all I could manage to do was watch fairy tales and movies that felt sweet and comforting. It could have been a delayed freeze response to the situation with the mother figure happening in my body, but it did make me wonder about continuing the journey with Rosemary. I did a LOT of crying those days and could feel the grief just coming up and out. So my question is - well, I guess I have two. 1) did anyone else experience a darkness after ending? If so, how did you navigate it? 2) Has anyone else thought about continuing with Rosemary? I'm thinking about maybe doing a three day journey after I've rested up a bit and wanted to know if anyone has any thoughts or suggestions?

Gwairoch - I don't know if any of that would serve for IG or your posts, but if you feel it would, please feel free to share. Also, I want to say a HUGE thank you for putting this together. It was tough, deep, painful, and at the same time I feel so much stronger and more supported than I've ever felt before. Even though I still feel like I'm floating in between a bit, I know the solid strength I carry inside and I believe that's a gift Rosemary gave to me. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Sending so much love and light through time and space to all of you 🧚🏻‍♂️🌀🩵🦋🌿