Deep crazy cleaning
Hey beloved souls,
I am coming back to share some experiences of the last days. I left my phone off nearly the whole days since the first of January. I bearly eaten because it felt right.
I feel how she is cleansing me deeeply. 2024 i really made some Big steps out of my comfort cone. I stepted more into my power, i startet sharing my Art and my healing powers with people arround me. I startet to truly follow my Visions i have for my live.
Like i allready did know befor 2024 what i want to bring in this live through me. What my Mission is here. But i was constantly avoiding real action. This changed 2024. And so my voice changed and now i am singing more and more and feel more and more comfortable to share it with the world. This meens a Lot for me, since i was allways hiding my voice. But now my voice is becoming more and more a Tool to express my self. My Art is expanding more and more, and so am i.
I do also live more my spiritual path, i show it more to the world, i am more confident with what i belive.
Yes this year was a deep year of deepening my soulpath. Deepening to live my true nature and showing and expressing my truth, my spirituality.
And yes now i am sitting here and rosemary is deeply cleaning me.
On the first of January i started to get sick, my nose was stucked and throat hurted. A Day after i startet bleeding :D ๐๐ฅด and last Night my stomach startet to hurt and i needed to throw up and today my belly still hurts.
I have no clue what exactly she is cleansing. i guess she ist cleaning some left overs from the last year. because i made such a Big step last year, and i felt Like breaking through so much, Find my Deep Joy again and Find the Courage to Step out of my "mimimi-and -i-can't-do-this-state ๐
And maybe there was kinda stucked some energies left in my System which wanted to be burned out.
So it is not, that befor 2024 i wasn't in my journey or that i didn't listened to my heart and all of this. But 2024 i felt Like finally reciving some fruits of my inner and outer work that i have done for so many years now.
In this journey i felt Like rosemary was crashing through a ticket Wall i created to "safe" me from the outer world. But this also means that my light couldnt shine through.
The day befor yesterday i wanted Burn a little bit of dried rosemary. And rosemary where imediatly burned all over to ashes. That is how i feel currently. Burned out, so there is only left my essenence. Maybe i will Rose Like Phoenix out of the ashes ๐
Tomorrow ist my last Day. I hope to find some clearity.
But in the other side i am in deep trust that everything ist happening to my highest good and that i am giving birth to something new right know, even though i don't See clear what i am burning away and what is about to be birthed.
Thank you all for beeing here together๐๐ซ๐ณ much Love.
Yesterday in all the burning, feeling heavy and "mรคh" some melody came out of me and i want to share it with you :)
Oh and something else.
What i deeply learning this journey: i am who i am, and i am good with who i am, just as i am. I don't need to be like someone Else, i don't have to Make the Same experiences, i don't have to feel the Same. I am walking my own true path and everything on this path is how it ment to be. I just can simply stop comparing myself to others, in how "far" they are and blabla.
This realization might seem very simple but for me it is allways a good Reminder and i am thankful rosemary is showing me this in a deeper Level now, as i am allowing it to sink deeper.