Deep crazy cleaning
Hey beloved souls,
I am coming back to share some experiences of the last days. I left my phone off nearly the whole days since the first of January. I bearly eaten because it felt right.
I feel how she is cleansing me deeeply. 2024 i really made some Big steps out of my comfort cone. I stepted more into my power, i startet sharing my Art and my healing powers with people arround me. I startet to truly follow my Visions i have for my live.
Like i allready did know befor 2024 what i want to bring in this live through me. What my Mission is here. But i was constantly avoiding real action. This changed 2024. And so my voice changed and now i am singing more and more and feel more and more comfortable to share it with the world. This meens a Lot for me, since i was allways hiding my voice. But now my voice is becoming more and more a Tool to express my self. My Art is expanding more and more, and so am i.
I do also live more my spiritual path, i show it more to the world, i am more confident with what i belive.
Yes this year was a deep year of deepening my soulpath. Deepening to live my true nature and showing and expressing my truth, my spirituality.
And yes now i am sitting here and rosemary is deeply cleaning me.
On the first of January i started to get sick, my nose was stucked and throat hurted. A Day after i startet bleeding :D 🙈🥴 and last Night my stomach startet to hurt and i needed to throw up and today my belly still hurts.
I have no clue what exactly she is cleansing. i guess she ist cleaning some left overs from the last year. because i made such a Big step last year, and i felt Like breaking through so much, Find my Deep Joy again and Find the Courage to Step out of my "mimimi-and -i-can't-do-this-state 😂
And maybe there was kinda stucked some energies left in my System which wanted to be burned out.
So it is not, that befor 2024 i wasn't in my journey or that i didn't listened to my heart and all of this. But 2024 i felt Like finally reciving some fruits of my inner and outer work that i have done for so many years now.
In this journey i felt Like rosemary was crashing through a ticket Wall i created to "safe" me from the outer world. But this also means that my light couldnt shine through.
The day befor yesterday i wanted Burn a little bit of dried rosemary. And rosemary where imediatly burned all over to ashes. That is how i feel currently. Burned out, so there is only left my essenence. Maybe i will Rose Like Phoenix out of the ashes 😂
Tomorrow ist my last Day. I hope to find some clearity.
But in the other side i am in deep trust that everything ist happening to my highest good and that i am giving birth to something new right know, even though i don't See clear what i am burning away and what is about to be birthed.
Thank you all for beeing here together🙏🫂🌳 much Love.
Yesterday in all the burning, feeling heavy and "mäh" some melody came out of me and i want to share it with you :)
Oh and something else.
What i deeply learning this journey: i am who i am, and i am good with who i am, just as i am. I don't need to be like someone Else, i don't have to Make the Same experiences, i don't have to feel the Same. I am walking my own true path and everything on this path is how it ment to be. I just can simply stop comparing myself to others, in how "far" they are and blabla.
This realization might seem very simple but for me it is allways a good Reminder and i am thankful rosemary is showing me this in a deeper Level now, as i am allowing it to sink deeper.