Reconnecting with "La Loba" within
Dear all,
I am still connecting with the Deva of Rosemary on a daily basis, by praying in front of my altar.
During the 12 Holy Nights, I was also working with an obsidian yoni egg. I do have a very strong connection with this stone. I was gifted an obsidian mirrow by another in Mexico, which is part of my altar and which I was called to use two days ago. An obsidian mirrow, for those who may not know, is a smooth obsisian "plate" cut in a round shape, in which you can see yourself, as if you were looking into a mirrow. It supports in seeing the shadow aspect of one's being.
Two days ago I was called to look into this mirrow and what surfaced was the anger that I was still holding against my mother. And that it is my choice, to hold on and suffer, or not to. I chose to forgive (again, as it happens in layers for me), to let go. Because I deserve to be happy. 💗And I do want to live a "happy life". What came through as well was "You have the CHANCE to forgive!", as if it was - I believe it is - a gift ... One description I found online for "forgive" is: "To give up resentment against or stop wanting to punish (someone) for an offense or fault", so - in fact - I do believe that forgiveness is a gift we can gift ourselves with in the first place ... and then, of course, it may also become a gift for the other person ... It may.
The further wisdom, which came through and which I was asked to share, was that "I owe this to my female linneage. That this is how we can reconnect with our power, by forgiving those, who were disconnected, who gave (or had to give) their power away, due to our patriachal system, due to persecution, or other reasons." I am referring to the force, described as "the wolf woman" by Clarissa Pinkola Estés in her book; the old wise woman, who every woman* (maybe every human, I am not sure ...) carries within. For my part, I am reconnecting with this power step by step, and this is so (!) beautiful.
One of the main processes I had during the 12 Holy Days was to reconnect with my inner children / youths and feel their, well my pain, anger, solitude, dispair, ... Uff ! That was though ! One of the main messages, that came through, was: "Show your parents, that you love them." What came through during the 12 Holy Days as well were a lot of impulses to step into my (female) power, to show up in my joy, wildness and sexuality.
... Everything is falling into place perfectly. ☺️
Thank you for your presence.
The best wishes for you path.
From my heart to yours,
Caroline

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