Navigating Challenges on My Path of Devotion
Beloved Sister & Brothers,
I wanted to share something personal that has been unfolding for me since last night during the evening immersion with Rosemary.
Before bed, something very important came up that I needed to discuss with my husband. He has been such a significant part of my journey, always supporting me through every phase of my life. Years ago, when I was a professional bodybuilder, he stood by me unwaveringly, enabling me to reach the highest levels of that industry.
In 2018, I experienced my first awakening, which deepened in 2020 when I chose to retire from bodybuilding and embrace a more holistic, soul-driven way of living. He fully accepted and followed me through this transition, even as we navigated challenges together.
However, since 2022, as I’ve devoted myself more deeply to my spiritual practices, I’ve noticed a shift. It feels like the unwavering support he once gave has softened, and I’ve started to feel less seen and accepted in this part of my journey.
Last night, I opened my heart and shared with him how I’ve been feeling... that I don’t feel fully supported and honored in my path. I asked him if he could accept my next level of devotion to this calling and not interfere with it. His answer was a loving and clear yes.
But today, he expressed that he feels I’m “losing myself” and “drifting off.” These words struck deeply because, in my heart, I know this path is where I’m being called. It’s not about drifting... it's about aligning more closely with my purpose and God’s guidance.
This experience has brought up emotions, questions, and reflections for me. I am reminded of how much I love and value my husband’s presence in my life, yet I also feel the weight of choosing this path wholeheartedly.
I know some of you may resonate with these moments of navigating relationships while walking a path of devotion. I would love to hear your wisdom, insights, or simply your prayers as I navigate this tender terrain.
With love and gratitude, Jessica
Feeling this, thankyou for sharing so personally, holding you in this process 🤍🙏
For me I realised, even though it worked quite fine me doing my spiritual practices and my partner not really understanding over time I felt I'd love a connection where I can share this side of myself, where i can talk about magical beings I meet in journeys without them switching off kinda thing. Share ceremonies together (as well as our own individual work!) Create together ect.
This year after 6 years, we went seperate ways with love, grief and knowing we weren't aligning anymore.
I do believe we can always work through any change, distance, new direction of life, new phase of awareness, together, but both people have to choose that in my experience.
I believe as long as theres honest communication, curiosity and desire to understand one another, a willingness to grow together and a willingness to find your way back to eachother when youve grown apart as we will again and again in long term partnerships, and most of all- acceptance and support of someone's path even IF you don't understand it!!! - all this on both sides - then any two people no matter how different can create something that will be mutually giving, and last. 🤍🤍 But both have to choose it, fully. 🤍🏹
A particular quote said long term relationships are like attending a thousand funerals of the person you fell in love with, and loving them again and again or something like this. I really loved that. Change is inevitable as we grow, and especially when going down these paths- distance is probable unless you're both aligned on the same soul path, and even then... but it's how both people respond to these inevitable teachers! ^__^ 🤍
Sending love, support, whatever is needed at this time for you 🤍🙏✨️